and the headlines will read.....

the lonliness we create for ourselves tends to overwhelm me at time
where did i ever go wrong?
I sit here, starring at a manifesting screen
swicthing back and forth from addiction to addictio
my mind begging for the attention others recieve
but with each refresh button i clock,
i just get more evidence to how useless i am

i know i am loved
i have friends
but with most of them i feel as if i'm taken for granted
that i can be pushed the corner in the back of thier minds so fast
being a little reminder of what the pathetic looks like
and be the annoyance in thier eventful lives that tend to exclude me from

is it wrong to starve for attention
especially when you've gone almost 20 years minus it
cant the quiet get their turn to be the center of attention?
i guess not