my own obsession

you were my guiltiest pleasure
fueling the line of fire  that was growing around us
telling me things you unknowingly shouldn't have
creating lustful images i wouldn't have dare confessed too you

but then i allow reality to set in
allowing my connections to you be cut
faded
or maybe plainly severed

now your absense in my life is driving me mad
no one to fulfill my attention craving
intellegence being gone from all forms of conversation
the joy plainly being sucked out of me

so many thing have been working against me
and i desperately want to grasp in your direction
but you know long are waiting with the life saver

Will you sit there and watch me drown?

i assume not

you're no longer around.....